Really just wanted to get that sad journal off my page.

I think I have come more to terms with what happened back in November. I'm still sad about it, still think about them and still have tears come to my eyes when I do. But then I remind myself that they are in a better place now, and are no longer suffering, and that single thought has gotten me through it for the most part.

But anyways here is a little update on things going on in my life and such.

Well this week I am on spring break so I have some free time for once.
I'm in my final semester of community college and will be heading off to Eastern University fall to get my BA in Graphic Design. and I'll be turning 21 in a few weeks.

I find this hard to believe....I don't feel like I'm 21. Actually I don't know how I feel. It like I'm stuck in between teenager and adult. On one hand I feel like I'm getting old on the other I don't feel that I'm old at all...I don't know I can't explain it really. Maybe it's because I feel lost lately. Like I feel like I'm not heading in the right direction in life but at the same time it's where I want to go. Has anyone ever felt this confused? >.< Maybe Uni will be good for me, give me a different surrounding. Not that I don't like where I am, actually I like where I am and don't want to leave, but got grow up some time.

sorry I'm babbling now.

As far as art goes, I feel like I have really improved in the last year just comparing new drawings to old ones. I may or may not post the new drawings up. 1, I never longer have a working scanner so the only way anything is going to get posted is if I tape it to a wall and take a picture of it while my camera's on a tripod. That's hard to do when you have drawings in a sketch book and don't want to tear them out. so yeah. 2, I really don't want to. I really find it pointless any more. sorry guys but I do. I feel like I've really disconnected with DA lately. Not with people, with the site in general. it's just not there anymore. I probably won't leave DA since I do like looking at other people's work, you just won't see much from me anymore.

btw, I haven't been leaving much comments on other people's works and I'm sorry for that, I try to every so often but anymore I just fav if I like something. Mainly it's just an easy way for me to say "hey I really love this" especially when there are a lot of works I have to look through. *currently has 2,505 pieces of work to look through*

and as far as anything related to my stories, I'm still working on them just haven't posted anything about them. and that's something else I don't want to do either. But that because of all the art thief and crap going on, just don't want to put my characters or stories out there. I will say though that some have had major changes to them.

The Witch-dome no longer is called the Witch-dome, but I will not give the new name yet for personal reasons. The characters Have changed a bit some more than others and I think they are in their final forms. I've been working on this story for a long time and I think it started out premature. Has time has gone by and I grew and learned my story changed for the better and it hasn't been until recently that I believe it started hitting as more finished area than it did several years ago. But that is normal for any writer I think. no one can just wipe out a story in one shot and it be complete and good. It a process that takes time to refine and polish until it works well. and that's what I've been doing.

yeah I'll end it there. Sorry for the long text wall. If you read through all that, thanks for listening! or reading would be more like it. X3